TESTIMONY 14: MY SECOND SIGN FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT

(Re-written from my journal)

20 November 2014: I just saw my second animal spirit symbol in my room. I decided that it is important for me to start keeping record of these things to help others become aware of what is happening in the spiritual realm and also to keep as a part of my collection of testimonies (to restore the faith of unbelievers). I don't think anyone would believe these things if they haven't witnessed my full journey/story, I feel that I would perhaps be labelled as insane to anyone who is not open to spiritual truth, especially those unfamiliar with the Holy Spirit - because that's what we tend to do. "If I don't understand it, if it didn't happen to me, then I'm going to label it as weird and insane." So the only people I have spoken to about this is my father, mother, brother and best-friends who have witnessed my entire journey since I was saved by Jesus. (If you would like to virtually witness my journey then simply read from Testimony 1 upward)

So I've already briefly shared a post on the previous animal spirit symbol I was shown (Testimony 13) it was the symbol of a crab, and was shown to me in a bright pale-yellow light. (If you didn't read that testimony I will add it into this with even more detail) What makes the first animal spirit symbol so mind-blowing is that 2/3 days before the night of seeing it (shaped like a crab) there was a dead crab laying right outside my sliding door. I was sitting at my bedroom desk when suddenly my domestic-worker-bestie walked into my room saying: "Sydney, there's a crab outside your sliding door hey. I saw it yesterday. It's dead. Did you see it?" "A crab? Don't lie Lien." I laughed, because: "there is no chance that a crab would be in our backyard." "Just open your blinds, it's still there." she said "I don't believe you." I said, while walking over to my sliding door lol but as I opened my blinds I had to believe, because there it was before my eyes - a random dead crab. If Lien had picked the crab up and disposed of it the day before, I would not have believed her, because I haven't seen a crab in years? And I always saw it near the ocean. What would one be doing in my area? What would one be doing in my backyard? I stood starring at the dead crab thinking how strange it was that "Not only is this crab in my backyard, but it crawled up to my gate when it could have crawled anywhere else? And the strangest fact of all, is that it crawled right here and died." Picture below of the dead crab laying on it's back:

After starring at it for a while I then closed my blinds and decided not to over-think this or try and link it to anything spiritual. "It's just a dead crab, there's no meaning." I told myself. Fast-forward 2/3 days later I'm sitting in my bed after a very long prayer on my knees. All of a sudden the atmosphere changed in my room. It became more "real", is the best word I can use to describe it, and I had the feeling that something supernatural was about to happen. It was like if an angel had to appear in front of me I would not be shocked or scared, kind of feeling. I looked around my room for a while waiting for something to happen, and it did. Up against my closet door appeared a yellow light in the clear shape of a crab. It didn't hit me immediately that there was still a dead crab placed outside my sliding door. It took me a few minutes to make that connection and it was quite the trip when I did lol my immediate thought was: "I need to find out what this means, I need to research it right now" and so that is what I did. I went onto the internet and searched on google: "Crab spirit Bible" to see what I could find that was biblical related and not "new age". I found an article on animal spirit symbols. Above the website read "EQUIPPING THE SAINTS FOR MINISTRY" It's subtitle was "THE HOLY SPIRIT IS NOT FOOLED". A part of the introduction read:

"Over years of ministering Isaiah 61, or the deliverance ministry, we have come to recognize individual spirits by pictures or visions that are repeatedly given by the Holy Spirit to pinpoint a certain entity. For instance, if the [Holy] Spirit shows us a mushroom cloud, as in the after wake of the atom bomb, we know we are dealing with a spirit of insanity" etc... and true or not I did not know but on this Website it listed all the types of evil spirit symbols and what they meant. There were so many! But I was in search for anything to do with a crab which is what I feel the Holy Spirit revealed to me, and I found it! On that massive list was (number 5): "Control spirit - Spider, Octopus, CRAB. It controls through it's arms leading to many hurts and wounds in a person. Just as the person seems to be almost free, it will pull one of it's tentacles to cause the person to pull back. The spirit conveys, and will slowly cause bitterness, hatred, unforgiveness and suicide to surface." 

And I started thinking about this one horrible day and night I had where I felt sad for no reason and I wondered why? I cried and started feeling sorry for myself. Thoughts like "I've been a victim all of my life is this ever going to end?" It was a random load of depression on me, who is normally happy 24/7 even when not smiling I'm happy inside, dancing everyday, singing everyday, but not that day. I immediately rebuked the spirit of control saying "You, spirit of control, I rebuke you right now in Jesus name, my body belongs to God. Satan has no power over my body in Jesus name!" and felt something lift off of me! I felt a gentle warmness in my stomach and an instant calmness. I am so glad God is showing me all of these things because now I know the reason we find so many unhappy, depressed, suicidal people in our world. They reach that point because they are being influenced and controlled by the unseen evil spirits. The world is unaware and has stopped believing in miracles and the supernatural/spiritual realm, so we all play the role of very easy victims.

So TODAY (20 September 2014) I was searching for videos on Jesus and the end times, because for some reason I had been doubting Jesus lately, even after what He did for me. I came across a very interesting end times video and after watching that Sid Roth Youtube Video (Paul McGuire Interview) at the end of the video he prayed for the viewer to have something supernatural happen to them, for the Holy Spirit to enter the room in which that person was, and for God to fill that person with what they needed to prepare them for the end times, I was that person lol I have to admit I became a slightly scared person when he looked into the camera and said that - because I thought "Oh boy what's gonna happen now..." lol but then he added that we are the ones who need to accept it though. So when the video ended I prayed "God you have not given me a spirit of fear, you have given me a spirit of power, love and of a sound mind. I accept anything you want to give me or show me. I am open to receive. In Jesus name. Amen." Again the room became "different" and I looked around the room and asked: "God could I see an angel?" (I had been asking for this a few days before that as well, but maybe I'm just not ready to see that yet, maybe it would scare me at this stage, or maybe it's not necessary). Suddenly, behind my door against my white wall, another light appeared. I thought it would be an angel, but it wasn't lol it was the very clear shape of a bird. I could see how the wings instead of going out though, were positioned going down on each side. The shoulders of the bird were quite squarely shaped as well. A little disappointed I thought "That's not an angel God" lol but I got back onto my laptop and searched for bird symbols. I wondered if there wasn't maybe something on that previous article on birds as I just focused on the crab spirit and lust spirit the last time (Testimony 13) and I found that there were two bird spirit symbols on that list. The one was a black bird, which didn't look like the one I saw, the other was a "Thunderbird" and I had no idea what a thunderbird looked like, so I googled it lol (Thank God for Google) and I found the EXACT shape the light was! Incredible! View the shape below (Of course it had no patterns, it was just a light yellowish white light in the following shape):

And on the same website it read: "Antichrist related spirit - thunderbird, morning bird of American Indian lore, swine or pig."  I thought all my doubts about Jesus must be coming from this spirit. I rebuked it immediately :) so yes, there is far more to the physical - that much I am certain of. And if you would like to walk this spiritual journey then say this prayer: "Father God, I love you. I am a sinner, but I do not want to sin anymore. I believe that you sent your son Jesus into the world as a human sacrifice for our sins. I believe that Jesus was crucified, and that You rose him from the dead again. I believe that he is seated at the right hand side of you in Heaven. I believe He will come again. Let your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven God. Satan no longer has power over me. In Jesus name. Amen."

"Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved,

but whoever does not believe will be condemned."

(Mark 16:16)

God bless you, guide you and protect you... Amen. 

TESTIMONY 13: I SAW A CRAB SPIRIT IN MY ROOM

Tonight after a long prayer for others and then myself I saw something floating about in my room, it was shaped as a crab, precisely shaped as a crab. I found this really strange, because for 2/3 days now there has been a dead crab situated right outside my sliding door. Now, I have not seen a crab in the physical for years so seeing that was quite astounding. Being a child of God who is now more aware of the spiritual I wondered as I looked at this big crab what it meant, but I thought maybe I was just over-thinking things so I just left it there figuratively and literally lol tonight though, after seeing this crab shaped vision, I immediately researched it. I searched "Crab spirit Bible" to see if there was anything on it? This is what I found (thank you God):

"Control spirit - spider, octopus, crab. It controls through it's arms leading many hurts and wounds in a person. Just as the person seems to be almost free it will pull one of it's tentacles to cause the person to pull back. The spirit conveys and will slowly cause bitterness, hatred, unforgiveness and suicide to surface." 

This same article,which lists many symbols of evil spirits, also mentioned that the "Lust spirit is almost always a frog". A video I had watched quite some time back, at the very beginning of my journey as a true Christian, immediately came to mind. In this video a man by the name of Howard Pittman explains his NDE journey where he was shown how possession takes place in the spiritual realm. He mentioned that demons came in shapes of people and animals that we can recognize from earth and spoke about how he witnessed a woman and man in the same hospital his earthly body was resting in, speaking to each other. He said "it was obvious that they could see not me, nor the angels or demons. Yet I was so close to them I could almost reach out and touch them.I could hear and understand everything they were saying. They thought they were alone and as they laughed and talked they were unaware of the horrible creature standing in between them." So they couldn't see him in the spiritual realm, but he could see them in the physical world as well as what was happening in the spiritual realm, where he was at the time. He watched what he explains as "a horrible looking slimy green frog" enter the face of the man. The angel that was escorting Howard Pittman then explained that "the demon was able to enter the man because he made himself desirable and attractive to the human."

While watching this video back then the majority of me believed it to be possible even though it sounded far-fetched. I believe that to be because of the gift of discernment (the ability to judge well) that comes with the Holy Spirit. I would never have believed in these things before being saved and I didn't even know there was a spiritual realm to begin with. Now looking back at that video, I can watch it with new eyes that have learned even more through God with a mind that is even more wise. I am going to attach the video below this post. It is an hour long but you absolutely have to watch this video, even if you don't believe it now, God will confirm everything later on your journey.

That all being said, remember that the enemy of God only has a foothold/ door into your life if you choose to sin, because sin is rebellion from God (Who tells us not to sin). If you do anything that you feel God would not be proud of ask for forgiveness immediately, repent. All children of God are targets of the enemy of God, because they are saved and helping God save others, so always be on guard. always be awake and ready. God will always warn you and prepare you for what is coming you just need to recognize the signs and rebuke, rebuke, rebuke in Jesus powerful name!

If you would like to read about the types of spirits you get you can visit these two articles: Symbols of evil spirits and Types of evil spirits to remove these spirits from your life all you have to so is say "I rebuke you spirit of _ in Jesus name!" and you will actually feel something being lifted off you.

If you would like to virtually witness these spirits being rebuked you can watch this video of Derek Prince rebuking spirits in Jesus name. Below is one of the most insightful videos you will ever watch in your life. Before watching it ask God to help you to always understand what is the truth, to give you the gift of discernment. I pray that God protects you, guides you and fills you with peace, love, joy, understanding and wisdom, in Jesus name! God bless :)

TESTIMONY 10: ATTACKED AFTER TRYING TO SPEAK IN TONGUES

So in the last post I shared a story about a new church I tried where everyone was speaking in tongues, and how I tried, but I failed. Well, I tried again lol on the way to my casting! It was just me and my earthly father in the car and he had left me alone for a short while when picking up something at the vet for our dogs. During this short while I remembered Kelly telling me that I should practice speaking in tongues. I had decided to attempt it right there at that moment while I had some alone time. I thought, well if this really is a secret way of talking to God, a language the devil cannot interpret, then I want to be apart of this. After all it is mentioned in the Bible?

"In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well."

(Mark 16: 17-18)

So I closed my eyes, raised my hand in the air and started. So I tried speaking in tongues just saying whatever flowed out of my mouth and I started feeling different, it's so hard to explain, but I felt something inside me happen and a presence. The same light-headed feeling I got at the church was back, and for a split second I was on my way to a smile and maybe even a giggle, just because it was such a different feeling, but then I started feeling light-headed in a bad way. At this moment my father got back into the car and I kept silent, but I was panicking inside. I thought "Oh no, did I just do something I thought was right but is actually wrong in God's eyes?"

There was a bit of a battle taking place in my mind. "What if speaking in tongues is actually evil and I was deceived? Oh dear God, please forgive me if what I did was evil." "No wait I could just be getting attacked because I'm now seen as a threat being able to speak in tongues?" this went on the whole trip towards town. I felt like I was being attacked, spiritually. I mean, how do you fight against something you can't see? Answer? You pray! Prayer is said in the material/physical world, but it works in the spiritual realm. At this point my heart was pounding, My chest was tight, my mind was consumed with paranoid thoughts, I felt like I was going to die on the spot. I pulled my seat back to lay down. I started searching for a prayer against evil on my phone and came across a brilliantly long one. While I was trying to read it and feel it, my dad starts asking me questions lol and in my mind I'm just like, dad this is just really not the time lol but I was responding bluntly, all in all I was trying to remain as calm as possible so that he didn't worry. "Penny for your thoughts?" he asked again. I completely ignored that question. "Are you okay?" "Are you tired?" "Yes, I'm just tired." (easiest way to hide any emotional struggle - say you're tired) matter resolved. I didn't get to finish the prayer in the car, but I started feeling better when I said that I am protected by the blood of Jesus Christ and that no weapon formed against me will prosper, but when I arrived inside the building of my casting I felt it again. I thought "Great, model dies at casting..."

When I reached the floor of Glamour Magazine I kept calm tried to smile while saying hi to Michelle and Kelly (Testimony 9) who were also casting and went straight to the bathroom to pray. I finished that whole prayer and felt a million times better after, like something had just been lifted off of me. I also messaged someone I really trust to pray for me and just like that, it was gone, I was back to my happy self, but one thing was on my mind. "I am done modelling, this is it, I can't live a double life, wanting to live my entire life for God and then I have to go to these castings and shoots in between. I just want a clean life." Now, I had been wanting to quit for a long time, and finally did it with my previous agency. Then I was approached by another and I took it as a sign that there was a reason I had to continue. I thought more people would listen to me if I were a model, and maybe I'm right, but at that point I said this is enough, I'm done forever now. The few minutes it lasted felt liberating lol I was feeling so confident about my choice that I told the client with a smile on my face "This is my last casting," she asked me "Oh really, why?" I thought for a second and responded "I guess you could say, because of God." then I left like a boss lol after the casting was done of course.

When I got back into the car I told my father the same thing "this was my last casting, I'm done modelling." "What happened did they say something?" he asked. I explained what had happened to me in the car while he was gone and he gave me some really good advice. "You know what, I knew something was wrong I know my daughter. This is what I was worried about, you getting attacked by evil, because you wanna do such good things and you so extreme. But Sydney, regarding your career you are meant to be a model God wouldn't have made you beautiful if you weren't, there's a reason God made you the way you are, God gave you gifts and you must use your gifts." I interrupted him saying I don't enjoy it anymore like I used to, and that it went against everything I believed in, beauty is not a face it's a soul. When you look at it in the larger picture, the modelling industry is spreading to the whole world that your image is everything. We models advertise make-up, hair products, skin products, fashion, jewellery, and we create this image that every other girl in the world thinks they can be - when really the models don't even look like the images in the magazine.

In the Bible it says we should not make ourselves beautiful with outer aids, God favours a beautiful soul: "Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewellery or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauy of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight." - (1 Peter 3:3-4)

"I want to sing gospel music and be a writer" "Okay well there, then be a singer and a writer you have many gifts, but I don't want to tell you the wrong thing, I suggest that you rather ask God what the best choice career would be for you. Then you make your decision." My dad had then reminded me about the most important thing, what about letting God's will be done? I need to flow with God's plan for me, not my own plan. I might be thinking that quitting modelling is what He wants, but what if it;s apart of His plan? I agreed to ask God.The whole way back home I was just thanking God for getting me out of that dark place, saving me, protecting me, caring about me. My eyes were tearing slightly as I was overwhelmed with thanksgiving! What a wonderful, powerful almighty God!!!!

When I got home I held the Bible in my hands and said "Father God, I know this book has all the answers. Show me a sign that I should either stop modelling or continue. I don't want to model anymore, I don't enjoy it. But if you want me to continue for some reason, I will do it for you. Let your will be done." The Bible separated at two places. I put my hand between the first section it separated and opened the other first, just to be safe. It was about something that didn't relate to career, so I paged back to the first section and read (Psalms 105)

 

"tell the nations what he has done.

Sing praise to the Lord,

Tell of the wonderful things he has done." 

I took this as a sign that I should be singing about God and writing about God, I opened at another random section and it read "Leave your family and country and go where I will show you." let's see where this journey is heading :) I'd just like to once again, thank God for what He did for me today. God is my life and words can't do enough here.... I am so glad that THE ALMIGHTY GOD, who has authority over everything loves and protects me! He really loves us a lot!

Glory be to God

TESTIMONY 9: MY FIRST HOLY SPIRIT HIGH

I'm not really sure what to call what I experienced, so I've named it the Holy Spirit High lol because that's how it made me feel and that's where it comes from, up high. Before Sunday I had no idea that the Holy Spirit could be felt in such a real way. I always used to think it was just that little voice telling us to do good and be good, but it can be felt as a sensation too? It was warm and very, very relaxing. I hope this post helps encourage you to seek more on your journey with Christ, because not only will it increase your faith, but there is also far more gifts that come with the Holy Spirit that you yourself could obtain if willed. It might be different for everybody, but this is my story.

So, this all really started manifesting on Thursday afternoon when I arrived at a fashion show presentation for Spree. I walked into the area where all the models were sitting, gave a polite teeth-less smile as everyone stared at me and took a seat near the table so I could write on my laptop. I planned to do some reading first though and as I'm taking my book (To Heaven And Back) out of my bag, guess who I see on the chair to my right, Kelly - the girl who had a vision about me (Testimony 4). She noticed me a bit later and greeted while taking her Bible out of her bag. Not long after we were joined by another model that I had met before "Are you also a Christian?" she asked as she walked our way looking at Kelly's Bible. Now strangely enough the girl walking towards us at this moment, Michelle, had met me the exact same way. I was reading my Bible at Cape Town fashion week and the first thing she ever said to me was "I'm glad I'm not the only one that takes my Bible with me everywhere I go, mines in my bag." The three of us sat in a circle, or rather a triangle, and started chatting up a storm about God. 

The whole situation was a bit much for me at first and put me on a bit of a trip to be honest. What are the chances of us all being at the same show and the Bible once again bringing us together? The conversation just started getting even more weird from then on. Perth Australia had been standing out to me everywhere for quite some time now, I kept feeling like maybe I was supposed to go there and when Michelle was asked by Kelly where she would like to travel next she says "I would like to travel to Australia now." I had also been really urging to spend time with little children lately and Kelly says "You should spend time with children. Do you spend time with children?" the weirdest part of it all would probably be the fact that I had prayed to God to meet more Christian friends whom I could speak to about my journey without offending someone or making them feel uncomfortable, and there were Michelle and Kelly, people I could talk to openly about God. We each shared our story about how we were saved and chatted throughout the free time we had before the show. 

"You should come try out The Bay church this Sunday." Kelly said. "You can really feel the Holy Spirit strongly there!" I agreed to come "Sure, that would be great." I then shared with her a really bad spiritual experience I had quite recently which I'm not sharing out of respect for the person it involved, but basically I literally nearly died lol. She said she was worried and wanted to pray for me after the show. When the show was over I offered Kelly a lift home so she wouldn't have to take public transport and when we arrived at her place she said "Could you get out of the car, I would love to pray for you." "Oh yes, please do." We both got out of the car together. We were on the sidewalk of a street in Gardens, at night. The streetlights made everything feel even more surreal, like something out of a Harry Potter movie intro lol. Surrounded by complete darkness she said "Place your hands out in front of you with palms up ready to receive and close your eyes" She then placed her one hand on my head and the other on my shoulder. I can't really remember the exact words of her prayer but it went something like this; in her awesome American accent she said "Father God, I rebuke any curses on Sydney in the name of Jesus Christ, fill her with the Holy Spirit, let her mind be renewed.. "etc. I felt at peace while she was praying for me. Luckily the street was empty because an outsiders perspective would have marked us as complete weirdos lol

When she was done praying we hugged goodbye and the next time I saw her was on Sunday morning, at the Bay Community church in Muizenberg, where "it" happened. Just like at the event I met Kelly at (in Testimony 4) again, I went alone. It was just me, her, her boyfriend and his mother, whom I met for the first time that day. At first everything seemed very normal inside the church. It was a small hall area, with chairs and a small stage with a band, until the pastor announced that we should all just praise God and let the Holy Spirit do it's thing. As everyone was praising and praying, I said a prayer that I for some reason was just drawn to saying at that moment, I said "Father God, fill me with the Holy Spirit. I want to be filled with your Holy Spirit God, I want peace and love and joy. This is what I want right now right here Father God." After saying Amen I just stood there quietly with my tingling hands up in the air. All of a sudden I got this weird feeling, it was warm but it wasn't coming from the outside, it was coming from the inside.

The warmth was in my stomach. It seemed to be spreading throughout my body. I started feeling a bit dizzy and I felt just, a different, sensation in my head area. I started panicking very slightly and thought 'should I tap Kelly on the arm and tell her? What if I'm about to faint or something?' but immediately another thought in my head said 'just relax and trust in God. God is with you, just be calm, this is you and God Sydney.' I then looked straight to the front and there was a little boy with a dummy in his mouth being held by his mother or grandmother. Her back was facing me, but the boy was looking at me above her shoulder. He made me feel calm. He stared for a while, long enough for me to start thinking 'why is he looking at me for so long, does he see something?' I felt so relaxed as he stared though, he had such beautiful piercing blue eyes and little threads of blonde hair on his head. I started feeling really happy lol I felt like laughing, but didn't want to seem weird so I allowed my stomach to shake with laughter but nothing came out of my mouth. I couldn't keep my smile in though lol and I just stood there swaying from side to side with my hands still in the air, smiling lol in a way I felt like I was drunk, but we didn't have any communion? Not that the little bit of wine would have made me drunk lol I just mean, this was all very natural - supernatural. 

The sensation then slowly started fading away, but I still felt happy after. I think it was mostly just excitement, because this was such a new feeling I had never felt before. 'What the heck was that?' I asked myself  'the Holy Spirit? It feels so good?' People then all started praying, some in English, others praying in tongues. Part of me was always skeptical about praying in tongues, I always wondered whether it was good or evil, but the other part of me really wanted to at that very moment, because I couldn't find the right words to pray in English. The pastor then asked that we pray for the person next to us and Kelly started praying for me as we held eachother, again I didn't really know what to say for her. The only thing I could get out of my mouth was "thank you father God that Kelly and I met" like a 5 year old prayer lol.... Kelly then said "I feel like God wants you to speak to Him, could you try and speak in tongues?" "What, right now?" I asked. "Yes, just try, right now, it will come from your stomach." "Okay..." I said with no confidence, but nothing. I just couldn't do it, I felt like I wanted to but my mind kept feeling that if I had to speak it would be something I was making up, so I kept quiet. 

When the service was over, still seated, I told Kelly what had happened to me and she became excited. She told me that she saw a white light around my mouth and that she felt it meant that I was trying to speak to God and that God wanted me to speak in spirit, but I stopped myself. I then told her that I had in fact been wanting to speak in tongues before she asked me to while we were praying. I immediately decided I would be coming back to that Church and that I would be getting baptized again there. "I'm going to bring my parents with next time." I said. And while we were still sitting having this conversation there were three people in front of me casually doing some sort of healing/rebuke? They were three elderly people, two women and a man. As I looked at the man who was shouting "I rebuke any power satan has over you, the son of God is more powerful than you satan!" with his and the other woman's hands over the woman in the middle, who was half falling to the ground, I thought to myself, now this is my kinda church lol I'm not sure where God will lead me to next, and which church will end up being my home, but for now I think I'll be attending both this church and Hillsong, because I love praising and dancing at Hillsong, it's like a praise party... but I definitely want to feel what I felt there again. That being said, I'm sure it can be felt anywhere if I really opened myself up to it. I guess we'll have to wait and see. 

Thanks be to God for not giving up on me, a sinner, and I can't wait to officially be Born Again :)

TESTIMONY 7: A WALK IN THE PARK

Picking up from Testimony 6, after watching the Tribulation movie I looked down at my dogs and they looked really sad and bored. They have after all been stuck in the house for weeks now. "Shame, these dogs need to get out of the house" I said to Lien (housekeeper-bestfriend) "Let's take them for a walk to the park!" Lien responded. I agreed and let the dogs know we were going on an adventure by shouting "vroom-vroom!" this phrase for some reason just gets their attention and they start running outside ready to go somewhere? Lol it's the strangest and cutest thing, but as soon as you say those words you have to take them somewhere, because if you change your mind they start moaning while staring at you, which is again - the strangest and cutest thing. So we grabbed their dog chains and took them to a park nearby. While they were running around with, I kid you not, proper smiles on their faces, I was having a chat about our neighbour with Lien. "Lien, did you ever hear church music coming from our neighbours house?" "Church music? No what neighbour?" "The one right opposite us, I heard it on Friday!" (Testimony 5) "I want to go there and see what it's all about." "Oh yes, that neighbour! The one with the white girlfriend. (lol) yes I did actually hear music coming from there sometimes. Maybe they have church there?" Lien said. "We should go" we agreed.

I then thought about that Friday night again, how I had planned to go there, but ended up staring at the stars. I laid down flat on my back again staring at the sky; only this time I was laying on grass and not on gravel and the sky was clear blue. I laid there for a while, again, looking at the larger picture. The half moon above me helped me focus on where I was located in the big world. It sunk in consciously "I am here on this earth made up of land and water, and the moon over there is to us as small as earth is to it." Just as I was starting to think about world peace again, and how easy it is to achieve if everyone agreed they wanted it, my dogs galloped right over me and started growling and going crazy! I sat up and saw they were chasing another two dogs, two beautiful dogs! They looked like snow dogs/wolves. Their owner was a man in a red Tshirt. "That's him!" Lien said softly. "What do you mean that's him, him who?" I said confused, because I had just been disturbed with a fright right out of deep thought. "The one with the white girlfriend. The neighbour!" "The house where the music comes from? Are you sure?" I asked "Yes, just ask him." "Excuse me." I projected "Do you live in the house opposite us?" I explained where we were located and it was him, the neighbour I would have walked to on Friday night (in Testimony 5).

"This is so strange, I heard music coming from your house the other night and wanted to come there, but I, well, didn't end up going. And we just mentioned you right now? And here you are at the park? What happens there?" He explained that every Friday they hold a praise and worship session at his house, called JAM "Jesus And Me". We spoke for quite some time, he had a lot to say about God. He spoke about judgement and how he doesn't force people to stop drinking and partying, "if you want to do that and still come to church then that is fine. It's about the spirit, it's a choice you make with guidance by God" he also spoke about pride and how most Christians do good "so that other people can see they are doing good, people want to please each other." He added that "God connects all His people" I sat there nodding my head the whole time, because I agreed with everything he was saying. There was one thing I wanted to ask him though, that I didn't get around to asking and you will soon find out just why. Although I had never actually met this neighbour my dad had mentioned him to me before, saying he had come up to my dad once and said "I used to be a devil worshipper, but converted to Christianity and now I rebuke demons out of people." I wanted to know if that was true, or if my dad was exaggerating or purely making the whole thing up, but I mean how do you ask someone that? "Hey so are you a former devil worshipper who converted to Christianity and now rebukes demons out of people? Oh you are? Okay cool.. I just, wanted, to know" lol while I was contemplating asking in my head still though he ended off with "If you would like to join you can come on Friday, at 7:30. Anyway, see you" and he left. Then out of nowhere a white bird landed right in front of me in the park, it looked exactly like the other one I saw before (Testimony 3) "Lien! Look at that white bird! Do you think that could be a dove?" She looked at the bird "Yes, that's a dove." I looked up at the sky and there were no other white birds flying around, just grey winged birds. Again, what are the chances? It then spread it's wings and flew gracefully away.

"After being baptized, Jesus came up immediately from the water; and behold, the heavens were opened, and he saw the Spirit of God descending as a dove and lighting on Him, and behold, a voice out of the heavens said, "This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well-pleased"." (Mathew 13: 16-17)

I hope that these testimonies increase your faith in God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit, and makes you believe in miracles, because they do exist. You just have to stop doubting and believe. My life has become miraculous... all because I said the Salvation Prayer that day at Hillsong in London (Testimony 2) :) make the decision today, you will not regret it.

TESTIMONY 4: SOMEONE HAD A VISION ABOUT ME

American Swiss event, where a girl approached me and told me that God showed her a vision of me

July 31 I was at an American Swiss diamond event my modelling agency had invited me to. For the first time in my life I had attended an event completely alone, not knowing anyone that was going to be there? I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to gain some independence. When I arrived at the event I had immediate regrets of coming alone though, because everyone knew someone there. "Hi there, welcome to the American Swiss VIP event, could I have your name please?" a lady asked me at the entrance "Hi, thanks so much, my name is Sydney Bailey." She checked the guest list and then ticked my name off. "Alright perfect, there is champagne on the right side if you would like to grab you a glass?" "Oh no thank you I don't drink." I then looked over to my right and noticed there was orange juice too. "I think I'll have a glass of orange juice though, thanks!" When I made my way into the American Swiss store I walked around looking at some of the diamonds, what else was I supposed to do? Interrupt somebody else's conversation that they were having with someone they actually knew? Lol, not a chance! A staff member of American Swiss then approached me holding a plate carrying a beautiful ring "Would you like to try on this diamond ring?" "Oh no thank you!" I said, scared it would get stuck on my finger, I wasn't going to be that person. "Are you sure? Just give it a try?" the staff member was persistent and I noticed there was a man with a camera following him everywhere waiting to snap someone with it on. "Okay, sure, I'll try it on." another staff member then put the ring on my finger as pictures were being snapped of the whole procedure. 

I was then offered a small snack by one of the waiter's with trays. After that I pretty much ran out of things to do lol so out came the phone. I then noticed another lady standing alone and we started a conversation. I then noticed a girl I had seen before at the event, she was also a model. I remembered her from Cape Town fashion week rehearsals. The remember her specifically, because she was the only other model, apart from myself, that was being defensive and openly showing with expression that she was not happy with the treatment. The team treated the models horribly, like we didn't have feelings? It was mostly just the two main ladies in charge. What caused me to become angry was when one of the ladies yelled at me "Closer to the edge!!" I looked to my right and thought if I move any closer to the edge I will fall off, I'm already on the edge? I showed her I was confused using my hands. She again yelled "Closer to the edge!!!" Are you stupid???" I thought how dare you call me stupid, who do you think you are talking to me like that? When it was her turn to walk I spotted her complaining to the other lady, making huge arm movements angrily and then storming off while she walked back up the runway. 

That was the first time I had seen her, and this was the second. She saw me and walked towards me. "Hi, I saw you at fashion week?" "Yes, I actually recognized you!" I replied. "I had a vision of you." she said. I paused for a moment confused as she continued "God shows me visions. And I feel like I should tell the people when I see them what the visions are and I have you here now." I was still trying to process all of this, at one moment I was just bored at this event and now I'm listening to someone tell me they had a vision of me. "Are you a dancer?" she asked. "A dancer? No I mean I dance all the time in the house but I really can't dance" I joked, but she continued "I had a vision of you dancing. You were wearing all white, and it was flowing. You were smiling and really happy. You were really really happy." I was in shock and didn't said much she must have thought me rude, but I didn't know what to say back to that and all I could think of was "really?" She added "I know it can be weird if someone tells you stuff like this, someone once came up to me and was like I had a vision about you and I thought it was weird." I didn't really know what to say so I decided to randomly tell her something that had happened to me when I was younger. "No I don't think it's weird. I actually had a dream that my aunt had passed away when I was younger, and then she had actually passed away soon after that." "Oh.. so you get dreams!" she said. 

Somebody then grabbed everyone's attention on the mic and speeches started. After the speeches she shook my hand and said "it was nice meeting you." and her and her partner walked away. I left soon after that. I believe that God works through His people and that we are all connected by God. After I was saved I started meeting a lot of believers, even on set of my shoots? Where were they before? I am loving this journey and am looking forward to meeting more good friends through Christ :) 

TESTIMONY 3: THE DAY I SAW A DOVE

The following wasn't a vision, it wasn't a dream. This took place in our physical world. In June 2014 I was sitting in the TV area, thinking about this book I had already started writing about how to create world peace. What lead me to writing this book was a prayer I made a few weeks before this moment. For so long I had been wanting to stop modelling, because I felt like I was wasting my life, so I had asked God that day "Father God, please just show me what my true purpose is on earth, I don't want to waste any more time here, I just want to do it. I want to know what it is so that I don't put all my effort into something that is not what I'm supposed to be doing. Show me my mission God. Show me my purpose. Show me God. Amen" I prayed for this with desperation in my heart, I really wanted God to show me and really believed He would. The next day I had a modelling casting and when I was done I sat down at a small cafe in Barrack street and started listing 10 things that I am grateful for in life (my usual routine). I stared outside through the clear glass window and watched people walking by. And asked myself, what is the purpose of all of this? What is the purpose of getting a job, none of these people are smiling? None of these people look happy? They are walking around like zombies off to work t make money. And this is their lives everyday. It was then that the solution had been placed in my mind. A solution to world peace. It was a surprisingly simple solution and yet never implemented? I knew God was telling me that I am meant to implement it. I am meant to share this simple solution with the world. My thoughts were leading me, showing me what I must do, and they lead me to writing a book that I am still busy with.

So, a few weeks later I was sitting there in my TV area, thinking about this book and how I was going to get it out to the world and save the world. Then I looked over to my left and this beautiful white bird was standing at my sliding door between the small alley on the side of my house. It was so beautiful that it felt surreal. It felt like a message from God to me. It felt like a blessing. Tears started falling down my face and I felt this overwhelming feeling of joy, like God really knew who I am and sent me this white bird. I consciously knew it was a dove, but what are the chances of that dove landing right in the small alley way on the side of my house, next to the sliding door, precisely while I was thinking about world peace? I immediately thought of Jesus when I saw it. The dove had started walking by the sliding door slowly, until it was eventually out of view. I was in awe by this experience and still staring at the sliding door in shock when my mother had entered the room. "What are you staring at?" she asked. "I just saw a dove!" "A dove? Where?" "Right here next to the sliding door!" I brought my mom over to the sliding door and was hoping it would still be there so that I could avoid looking insane lol (I had been talking to my parents about a book I was going to write that was going to bring peace to the whole world, they don't really seem interested or believe me, so they could have thought I was just making the dove up as well) but there it was, still standing in the alley way and my mother saw it with her own eyes! "Oh wow, okay, but how do you know it's a dove?" she asked. I believe that everything you see, you see for a reason. Nothing happens by accident in this world. I felt in my heart it was a sign from God to me. "It's a dove!" I said. I then researched the spiritual meaning of seeing a dove on earth to see what I could find and this is what I found and read to my mother. Who still wasn't very interested.

"The dove is a symbol of the Holy Spirit in Christian iconography. Some iconographers show Mary being blessed by a dove at the moment of Annunciation, and Jesus was blessed by the Holy Spirit in the form of a dove at his baptism. The dove is said to be so pure that it is the one form into which Satan cannot transform himself. The dove appears as  symbol of purity on the Holy Grail in Malory's Morte d'Arthur. In Muslim lore, a dove murmured the words of God into the ear of Muhammad. Today the dove is a symbol of peace, often portrayed with an olive branch in it's mouth. This iconography is taken from the story of Noah releasing the bird to bring back proof that there was land again somewhere and that the floodwater's were receding."

How exciting is that! I love signs from God, and I am excited to see where this journey leads me to on earth, but I know where it's leading me to in the spiritual realm :)

TESTIMONY 2: A TRIP TO HILLSONG

Hello Beloved! I hope you are feeling happy today! The following is a true story I would like to share with you, about the day Jesus changed my life! I used to drink, I used to party all the time, I even started smoking cigarettes for a few months? I smoked marijuana a few times too. I also found my new Church - a place I now consider home. So, in September I was in the UK doing modelling and I was staying in a model apartment with girls from all over the world. Two of my housemates were Christians, from America. Their names were Nickayla Rivera and Mckenna Bird. They invited me out with them to a church called Hillsong. "Nickayla and I are going to this church called Hillsong tonight, do you want to join us?" at that point I was more depressed than I had ever been in my life during my stay in the UK, so I said yes and thought I would go with them and check out this church they were raving about. Anything would have helped me at that point. We all got done the night, walked to the station together and on that train, I could not stop crying? I have no idea why I was crying, but tears were just rolling down my face? I suppose all of my problems in my life just hit me all at once in thought form on that train towards Hillsong Church. When my housemates asked me why I was crying all I said was "I just miss my family and South Africa." because I didn't know what else to say? Little did they know about the darkness that was consuming my mind in that very moment they were being lied to. When I entered the Hillsong Church building with red wet eyes I immediately got this warm feeling, like I had just entered a place where no one could judge me. It felt like I had just walked into a room full of family. There was a soft sound of distant loud music coming from the hall area. As we opened and entered through the doors of that hall, a bang of loud uplifting live music hit my ears and there was purple and blue light everywhere. To this day I still am not exactly sure why, but again tears started rolling down my face and I couldn't stop them from falling. I felt like my entire life had come down to that precise point, like I belonged there and was meant to end up there. At one point I had to sit down while everyone was standing, because I was ashamed and mostly just confused. The pastor then spoke and asked if there was anyone that needed Jesus to enter their heart, and if they were going through any struggles that they were to repeat a prayer after him to invite Jesus into their lives and accept Him as Lord, which I did. With a soaked face and a salty mouth, I stood up and repeated every word. After that prayer I immediately felt ten times better, like everything would be fine from then on. Tears were still rolling down my face, but I felt like smiling. My tears of sorrow and confusion, became tears of joy. I didn't know at that moment that I was being saved, but I knew life would never be the same again, and that I had found my church for life. If you haven't been to Hillsong Church yet, give it a try this Sunday? It might just change your life like it did mine! Like their worldwide facebook page here: Hillsong Church Facebook Page to find a Hillsong near you! And enjoy the journey :) God bless!

Testimony 1: The day I repented of my sins

My spiritual journey began when I confessed that I was a sinner to God, and said out-loud with true belief that JESUS IS LORD, but long before this took place you could already see Jesus trying to get me on the path to eternal life by placing His wisdom in my mind.

6/09/2013 I posted the following on my Facebook wall: "Please, when reading this post instead of assuming I am doing this for attention, or thinking that I am crazy, understand it. I am also in no way meaning to insult anyone else’s religion. This is simply what I believe in.

It’s Sunday night and instead of chatting to other people on my new phone, flirting with the opposite sex, or stalking people’s lives on Facebook, I am on the internet doing research on Nostradamus and other life in the universe. I do this every night, literally. I am so interested in these things, the world and how it formed interests me and mainly religion. I am a FIRM believer in Jesus Christ and I want it to be known. I do not care what you believe in or how it makes me look to other people, it’s ME and GOD. I trust NO ONE ELSE. He is the only one I wish to impress. I have decided to change my life; putting an end to the person I used to be. One could say that I don’t deserve a reserved place in the heavens above with a past like mine, but all along I have been on the right path to get me where I am today. Every mistake made, every lesson learnt, it was all meant to happen. There is one thing I am certain about and that is that I have believed in God my entire life and REALLY believed. Since I was a little child I prayed knowing He was listening to me. I could feel He was listening to me, because every prayer, was answered - every single prayer. I find it really hard to believe that there are even people in this world who don’t believe in God. How do they think we got here exactly? If I were to sit them down and ask them this very question I’m sure I would find their answer amusing as they entertain me with all of the nonsense placed in their minds by the strong mental influence on brainwashing drugs, TV shows and misleading books.

I think if people just took the time to actually read the Bible they would learn a lot more than just God’s existence. There are so many life lessons in that book, pages filled with life examples, mistakes, punishments. The Bible teaches you what you will need to do and be, if you want to live for eternity (in the heavens above) and it teaches you what not to do in order to avoid going to hell. (You don’t want this. Living like a King/Queen here on earth is not worth suffering there) I have believed in my God all my life but never ever read every page in the Bible, “because I have an understanding of the basics of what is in there”, I believed, but come to realize that I was just too darn lazy to take the time to pick up that big book and read every single word, nor did I have the time. Now, I am MAKING the time, I plan to read every page. Everything happens for a reason and I believe that, there is a reason I did not read the Bible earlier and there is a reason I am going to read it only now and discover things I need to know, now. I have made enough mistakes to sculpt me into this person that is brave enough to make this change (and type this post to the public). Now I am ready to read, learn and teach.

I have been alive long enough to know that people do not like to be preached to. In the past, I have received inbox messages myself from complete strangers sending me verses from the Bible. I thought these people were crazy. The curiosity and belief in God made me read the message they had sent me, but the judgement kept me from replying or implementing that lesson in the verse, in my life. I just simply carried on doing what I thought was living. So, when I say I am “changing my life” and doing God’s work from now onward, this does not mean that I will be inboxing everyone on Facebook or making long status updates (like this one exception) and that I will now become a bitter person towards people and judge their every move and choice of religion (How Christian would that be of me to judge? ) I will not run around with a huge sign hanging over my body saying “The end is near” either - that’s just not for me lol it is also pointless, nobody will listen to me (unless I’m walking around in a bikini - it seems). I refuse to lose my sense of humour as well, as this is a contributing factor towards my happiness and the happiness of others in my company. I will, however, no longer be socializing with people who choose to spend their time they have here, in nightclubs, wasting their (or their parents) hard earned money on alcohol and other substances – which in the end only prove to be a distraction from what you were actually created to do (Everyone has a purpose). These places, I feel, are places created for sin. (Mainly used for brainwashing/mind control)

What are you even there for? “I want to have a good time and enjoy my life - YOLO!” Why is getting drunk and high and dancing like animals or sexually considered a good time? Ask yourself this, and think deeply and simply about it. All you are going to do there is move your body to fast music (which puts you in a wild mood and mind-set) in a room filled with other people, whom you you either want to impress (why else would you spend so much time on your hair, face and outfit?) or you want to meet someone you can date for a while then break up with and cry about. (You are far less likely to find the man or woman you are going to marry in a nightclub. Being there in the first place already says enough about them to know that they are not ready for settling down. Throughout your relationship they will obviously want to carry on going to nightclubs, listening to the sound of the devil, getting drunk. And you will be on that path to nowhere with them. (You want your heart to waste love on a temporary someone? Go for it, but learn from it.) Or you could be there to support (or worship) a specific DJ/genre of music.

People need, to wake up and SEE that music has a MUCH larger influence on the world than we think. It is far more than just a sound. It is a feeling, which creates thoughts which lead to actions. (I will soon elaborate on this). If you listen to music about making money, getting drunk, taking drugs and having sex, you will be influenced into that direction whether you like it or not. Music lyrics are affirmations you repeat. Affirmations create beliefs in your mind and your mind forms your life. I’m not going to let these drugged up drunk “celebrities” (not role models) tempt me anymore, into wanting  to live a life like theirs, because it’s far less glamorous and far more messed up than it looks. Majority of them are secretly insane caused by drugs, you can hear it in their music. 

I no longer drink alcohol. I decided this only 2 weeks ago, making me 2 weeks sober and proud. Two sober weekends have passed. I am the happiest I have ever been, and this is just the beginning of my beautiful decision. I am so excited to see where this journey takes me, I am not even afraid of death anymore; I have come to terms with it and accepted it. I feel that no matter how painful your death will be, the shock and surrealism of it will outweigh the pain. I understand death now and when it is my time to go, it will happen. In the mean time I will place my life I’m living here in God’s hands, and He can now do what HE wants to do with it. I don’t care about my dreams anymore, unless they go hand-in-hand with His plan.

After this post, I get it - Inevitably I will be ridiculed. I would just like to be clear on one thing; this will not bother me at all. Jesus was ridiculed. Einstein was ridiculed. Nostradamus was ridiculed. Most people who preach the word of God on social networks are ridiculed. One should not worry about what people think, they are just another creation like yourself, they should not be more or less important to you. You are equal to them. 

GOD is the one you want to impress, Amen."

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