TESTIMONY 18: MY EXPERIENCE WITH A FAMILIAR SPIRIT

I should have posted this long ago, but I finally found an opportunity to sit down and type this today. A lot has been stopping me from writing lately. Not just on my blogs and pages but in my journals, I feel as though something has blocked my mind and I want you to know that life has been anything but easy during this stage of growth in my life - and that is exactly why - it is a stage of growth. As the word of God says:

"My brothers and sisters, consider yourselves fortunate when all kinds of trials come your way, for you know that when your faith succeeds in facing such trials, the result is the ability to endure. Make sure that your endurance carries you all the way without failing, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing."

(James 1:1-4)

All these trials I have been overcoming are only making me a stronger person, so that I am able to easily endure whatever challenges are to come my way in the future. I have many stories to share about various spiritual attacks I have been experiencing and many prayers being answered, but today I would like to share something that is going to help someone reading this, and may it Glorify the One true God, creator of Heaven, Earth and mankind.

Recently my little cousin, Lenay, was staying with me for a weekend. We decided to head to the movies, at Grand West's cinema and I just need to speak to God while we were both sitting on the back seat. So I said a prayer to God in my mind, with a very desperate heart that went something like this: "God almighty, please help me, I need a change. Show me what I must do to stop suffering like this. There must be a way I can still be happy throughout all of this. In Jesus name. Amen" and it was then that this thought came to my mind "Familiar spirit" I didn't know what a familiar spirit was, but I felt like it had something to do with a spirit that was familiar lol don't know how I came to this. So I said in my mind: "I rebuke you familiar spirit, in Jesus name! I believe that Jesus was crucified, that he was buried in the tomb and rose again. Leave my life now in the name of Jesus! You will no longer manipulate me!" and immediately after this prayer I started feeling physical sensations on my body - mostly on my legs. I'm not sure how to explain it perfectly so that you understand it, but it felt like a Goosebumps, like something was indeed leaving my body, or my spirit. The strangest part was that when I got out of the car and started walking I physically felt lighter. It was like I always felt heavy while walking around everyday without noticing, and I only realized that heaviness when it left me. The biggest miracle is that all the negative thoughts/ delusions and confusions were 100% GONE! It was like I entered a new world, because my perception (the way my mind interpreted it) changed instantly.

I walked around Grand West in shock at this immediate change in perception and began thinking about how real all of this is (this spiritual battle). While we (Lenay and I) were in the cinema I left to the bathroom alone, to say thank you to God and just to pray because I was feeling a bit afraid. I carry my Bible with me everywhere so I took it out of my bag and opened it at a random section after praying, and it opened at Proverbs and my eyes were immediately drawn to the following verse:

"The wicked run away when no one is chasing them, but the Godly are as bold as lions."

(Proverbs 28:1)

 

 I then prayed again giving thanks and asked for one more sign, I'm not sure why, but I felt like I had to and so I again opened my Bible at another random section and my eyes were drawn to the following title only:

"Esther becomes queen."

I'm not sure what that means yet, but my spirit became excited as I read it. I then messaged a fellow youth leader to pray for me, because I was feeling a bit light headed and generally I just wanted to speak to someone, because I was going through all of this alone (with God of course, but with no other people) I couldn't obviously talk to my little cousin about this lol so there is nobody standing beside me saying "Sydney I'm going through the same thing" or "I went through, the same thing, this is what you have to do" yet at the same time I am thankful for it, because it has caused me to put my full reliance on God and not on human beings, it has proven to me that God is indeed faithful, God indeed hears and answers our prayers and I am grateful for every experience - good and bad. I later researched what a familiar spirit was and it was indeed a spirit/demon that is assigned to people to make their lives difficult. The definition is: "A demon supposedly attending and obeying a witch, often said to assume the form of an animal." And I just thought, that is so rude lol how dare anyone or anything attempt to write my life with their curses and bad wishes. God is the author of my life! So I encourage you as fellow children of God to read the word of God, do the research, become wise and stand up strong against the enemy, because without taking it personally remind yourself that the enemy of God is simply trying to stop God's will from happening, by distracting you with worthless temptations to get you to sin, and using people to discourage you. The next day I shared this whole experience in our youth leader group and finally today (22 June 2015) is the day I managed to share it on my Blog after a prayer for God's will to be done and for this to be a productive day. I hope this post has helped you. Remember that YOU have the authority now:

"The seventy-two returned with joy and said, “Lord [Jesus] even the demons submit to us in your name.” He replied, “I saw Satan fall like lightning from heaven. I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. However, do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven.”

(Luke 10:17-20)

You can choose not to believe in a lot of things, as God has given you the gift of free will, but whether you believe in demons and curses etc or not, there are in fact devil worshippers in our world, who practice magic (which God's word forbids) and go around cursing people. I've learned that not all devil worshippers do go around burning churches and killing Christians, most of them are just deceived by, who Jesus calls "the father of lies" into thinking that they are God's themselves and that they have self-power - which is what the world is being taught today. So I pray that God blesses you, heals you and protects you mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. In Jesus name! Amen

TESTIMONY 17: CONFIRMATION FROM GOD

On Tuesday something told me to fetch my Bible before my first youth leader connect group meeting. Before opening my Bible, though, my dad asked me to message my brother to tell him to pick up some luxuries on his way home. So I left my Bible closed on my desk, grabbed my phone and as I was about to click on BBM, my phone's screen shifted to the left and I instead accidentally clicked the Bible app. I thought, well God must want to show me something right now because I don't believe in accidents lol and I read: "Today's verse" which said:

"Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.” (Matthew 18:19-20) 

I thought this was just the perfect verse for the day, being that I was going to be at a Hillsong church connect the night in which I knew we would end off with prayer. I then messaged my brother, put my phone down and opened my Bible at a random spot. I read about Jesus and just as I was about to stop reading, something told me: "don't be lazy, don't end here, just read one more page." I then paged over and listened to this thought and there stood the same verse without me even realising was at in the Bible: "Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.” I jumped back into my seat, looked up while pointing my finger up at God with a smile on my face saying "Whoa! God...you are good" lol when I arrived at our connect group I shared this experience with everyone. (We ended up having a spontaneous picnic underneath the stars.)

When we wrapped up and all held hands to pray I asked the leaders of our connect (Michka and Adrian) if they could pray for my family. I really want them to know God like I know God now. I want them to be saved.  I just want us all in Heaven when it's our time, you know. It's something I've been praying for a lot lately, but I thought I would ask our connect group leaders to pray too, because of the verse God had shown me. 3 people praying the same prayer is better than just one. The Wednesday I woke up early for no reason and walked into my mothers room and I caught her on her knees at the side of her bed, praying! What a great God we serve, but it doesn't stop here, the real goosebump material is still coming up!

It was Thursday evening that I said a desperate prayer to God almighty. I asked God for a sign. I said "God almighty, please show me something. I need to see something to fill me with hope. I feel so lost tonight. Please God, show me something. I want to be favoured by you like you favoured Mary. I want you to be pleased with me and I need to know that you are pleased with me. I need to hear from you or I will carry on doubting. Am I doing the right thing? Please show me a sign in the book I am about to open. Please God. I pray this in Jesus name. Amen"

When I opened my book of daily readings at a random spot, expecting to see a verse, my eyes were instead drawn to a picture of Jesus preaching on the mountains. He had a ray of light around his head and I immediately thought back to when I saw a ray of light around my head in the water's reflection (Testimony 16). I thought to myself 'My word, how could I have forgotten about such an incredible experience? Is this world so distracting that it would make me forget about such a miraculous moment in my life?' I was immediately filled with an incredible amount of hope, I knew that I was on the right path and that God was reminding me about this moment, because the words on that page were like a blur in the background and that picture is what stood out to me as bright as the light around the head of Jesus. Below is the picture I randomly opened my book at:

The amazing things is that I could have opened at any other picture of Jesus in this book but I opened at the page in which he has a ray of light around his head. This is the only picture in the whole book in which Jesus is shown with a ray of light. All the others just have a ball of light surrounding his head, or a cross. I thanked God for this sign, but guess what, I still had some natural human-doubt in me. I still was unsure as to why God showed me the ray of light around my head in the first place as well, and whether it meant that I am chosen/anointed or not. So I prayed another prayer from my heart and I fell asleep happy that night, because I had indeed been filled with hope like I had asked - but still felt I needed another clear sign. The next day (God didn't wait a week or even 3 days, God showed me the very next day) I received a message from a stranger on Facebook. Below is the message that sent Goosebumps all over my body and caused my eyes to water up from joy:

Praise the LORD God almighty because this is as clear as it gets lol thank you GOD! You see, all you have to do is pray and God will answer your prayers. Say a prayer right now and see for yourself :) God bless you.

TESTIMONY 14: MY SECOND SIGN FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT

(Re-written from my journal)

20 November 2014: I just saw my second animal spirit symbol in my room. I decided that it is important for me to start keeping record of these things to help others become aware of what is happening in the spiritual realm and also to keep as a part of my collection of testimonies (to restore the faith of unbelievers). I don't think anyone would believe these things if they haven't witnessed my full journey/story, I feel that I would perhaps be labelled as insane to anyone who is not open to spiritual truth, especially those unfamiliar with the Holy Spirit - because that's what we tend to do. "If I don't understand it, if it didn't happen to me, then I'm going to label it as weird and insane." So the only people I have spoken to about this is my father, mother, brother and best-friends who have witnessed my entire journey since I was saved by Jesus. (If you would like to virtually witness my journey then simply read from Testimony 1 upward)

So I've already briefly shared a post on the previous animal spirit symbol I was shown (Testimony 13) it was the symbol of a crab, and was shown to me in a bright pale-yellow light. (If you didn't read that testimony I will add it into this with even more detail) What makes the first animal spirit symbol so mind-blowing is that 2/3 days before the night of seeing it (shaped like a crab) there was a dead crab laying right outside my sliding door. I was sitting at my bedroom desk when suddenly my domestic-worker-bestie walked into my room saying: "Sydney, there's a crab outside your sliding door hey. I saw it yesterday. It's dead. Did you see it?" "A crab? Don't lie Lien." I laughed, because: "there is no chance that a crab would be in our backyard." "Just open your blinds, it's still there." she said "I don't believe you." I said, while walking over to my sliding door lol but as I opened my blinds I had to believe, because there it was before my eyes - a random dead crab. If Lien had picked the crab up and disposed of it the day before, I would not have believed her, because I haven't seen a crab in years? And I always saw it near the ocean. What would one be doing in my area? What would one be doing in my backyard? I stood starring at the dead crab thinking how strange it was that "Not only is this crab in my backyard, but it crawled up to my gate when it could have crawled anywhere else? And the strangest fact of all, is that it crawled right here and died." Picture below of the dead crab laying on it's back:

After starring at it for a while I then closed my blinds and decided not to over-think this or try and link it to anything spiritual. "It's just a dead crab, there's no meaning." I told myself. Fast-forward 2/3 days later I'm sitting in my bed after a very long prayer on my knees. All of a sudden the atmosphere changed in my room. It became more "real", is the best word I can use to describe it, and I had the feeling that something supernatural was about to happen. It was like if an angel had to appear in front of me I would not be shocked or scared, kind of feeling. I looked around my room for a while waiting for something to happen, and it did. Up against my closet door appeared a yellow light in the clear shape of a crab. It didn't hit me immediately that there was still a dead crab placed outside my sliding door. It took me a few minutes to make that connection and it was quite the trip when I did lol my immediate thought was: "I need to find out what this means, I need to research it right now" and so that is what I did. I went onto the internet and searched on google: "Crab spirit Bible" to see what I could find that was biblical related and not "new age". I found an article on animal spirit symbols. Above the website read "EQUIPPING THE SAINTS FOR MINISTRY" It's subtitle was "THE HOLY SPIRIT IS NOT FOOLED". A part of the introduction read:

"Over years of ministering Isaiah 61, or the deliverance ministry, we have come to recognize individual spirits by pictures or visions that are repeatedly given by the Holy Spirit to pinpoint a certain entity. For instance, if the [Holy] Spirit shows us a mushroom cloud, as in the after wake of the atom bomb, we know we are dealing with a spirit of insanity" etc... and true or not I did not know but on this Website it listed all the types of evil spirit symbols and what they meant. There were so many! But I was in search for anything to do with a crab which is what I feel the Holy Spirit revealed to me, and I found it! On that massive list was (number 5): "Control spirit - Spider, Octopus, CRAB. It controls through it's arms leading to many hurts and wounds in a person. Just as the person seems to be almost free, it will pull one of it's tentacles to cause the person to pull back. The spirit conveys, and will slowly cause bitterness, hatred, unforgiveness and suicide to surface." 

And I started thinking about this one horrible day and night I had where I felt sad for no reason and I wondered why? I cried and started feeling sorry for myself. Thoughts like "I've been a victim all of my life is this ever going to end?" It was a random load of depression on me, who is normally happy 24/7 even when not smiling I'm happy inside, dancing everyday, singing everyday, but not that day. I immediately rebuked the spirit of control saying "You, spirit of control, I rebuke you right now in Jesus name, my body belongs to God. Satan has no power over my body in Jesus name!" and felt something lift off of me! I felt a gentle warmness in my stomach and an instant calmness. I am so glad God is showing me all of these things because now I know the reason we find so many unhappy, depressed, suicidal people in our world. They reach that point because they are being influenced and controlled by the unseen evil spirits. The world is unaware and has stopped believing in miracles and the supernatural/spiritual realm, so we all play the role of very easy victims.

So TODAY (20 September 2014) I was searching for videos on Jesus and the end times, because for some reason I had been doubting Jesus lately, even after what He did for me. I came across a very interesting end times video and after watching that Sid Roth Youtube Video (Paul McGuire Interview) at the end of the video he prayed for the viewer to have something supernatural happen to them, for the Holy Spirit to enter the room in which that person was, and for God to fill that person with what they needed to prepare them for the end times, I was that person lol I have to admit I became a slightly scared person when he looked into the camera and said that - because I thought "Oh boy what's gonna happen now..." lol but then he added that we are the ones who need to accept it though. So when the video ended I prayed "God you have not given me a spirit of fear, you have given me a spirit of power, love and of a sound mind. I accept anything you want to give me or show me. I am open to receive. In Jesus name. Amen." Again the room became "different" and I looked around the room and asked: "God could I see an angel?" (I had been asking for this a few days before that as well, but maybe I'm just not ready to see that yet, maybe it would scare me at this stage, or maybe it's not necessary). Suddenly, behind my door against my white wall, another light appeared. I thought it would be an angel, but it wasn't lol it was the very clear shape of a bird. I could see how the wings instead of going out though, were positioned going down on each side. The shoulders of the bird were quite squarely shaped as well. A little disappointed I thought "That's not an angel God" lol but I got back onto my laptop and searched for bird symbols. I wondered if there wasn't maybe something on that previous article on birds as I just focused on the crab spirit and lust spirit the last time (Testimony 13) and I found that there were two bird spirit symbols on that list. The one was a black bird, which didn't look like the one I saw, the other was a "Thunderbird" and I had no idea what a thunderbird looked like, so I googled it lol (Thank God for Google) and I found the EXACT shape the light was! Incredible! View the shape below (Of course it had no patterns, it was just a light yellowish white light in the following shape):

And on the same website it read: "Antichrist related spirit - thunderbird, morning bird of American Indian lore, swine or pig."  I thought all my doubts about Jesus must be coming from this spirit. I rebuked it immediately :) so yes, there is far more to the physical - that much I am certain of. And if you would like to walk this spiritual journey then say this prayer: "Father God, I love you. I am a sinner, but I do not want to sin anymore. I believe that you sent your son Jesus into the world as a human sacrifice for our sins. I believe that Jesus was crucified, and that You rose him from the dead again. I believe that he is seated at the right hand side of you in Heaven. I believe He will come again. Let your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven God. Satan no longer has power over me. In Jesus name. Amen."

"Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved,

but whoever does not believe will be condemned."

(Mark 16:16)

God bless you, guide you and protect you... Amen.