TESTIMONY 14: MY SECOND SIGN FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT

(Re-written from my journal)

20 November 2014: I just saw my second animal spirit symbol in my room. I decided that it is important for me to start keeping record of these things to help others become aware of what is happening in the spiritual realm and also to keep as a part of my collection of testimonies (to restore the faith of unbelievers). I don't think anyone would believe these things if they haven't witnessed my full journey/story, I feel that I would perhaps be labelled as insane to anyone who is not open to spiritual truth, especially those unfamiliar with the Holy Spirit - because that's what we tend to do. "If I don't understand it, if it didn't happen to me, then I'm going to label it as weird and insane." So the only people I have spoken to about this is my father, mother, brother and best-friends who have witnessed my entire journey since I was saved by Jesus. (If you would like to virtually witness my journey then simply read from Testimony 1 upward)

So I've already briefly shared a post on the previous animal spirit symbol I was shown (Testimony 13) it was the symbol of a crab, and was shown to me in a bright pale-yellow light. (If you didn't read that testimony I will add it into this with even more detail) What makes the first animal spirit symbol so mind-blowing is that 2/3 days before the night of seeing it (shaped like a crab) there was a dead crab laying right outside my sliding door. I was sitting at my bedroom desk when suddenly my domestic-worker-bestie walked into my room saying: "Sydney, there's a crab outside your sliding door hey. I saw it yesterday. It's dead. Did you see it?" "A crab? Don't lie Lien." I laughed, because: "there is no chance that a crab would be in our backyard." "Just open your blinds, it's still there." she said "I don't believe you." I said, while walking over to my sliding door lol but as I opened my blinds I had to believe, because there it was before my eyes - a random dead crab. If Lien had picked the crab up and disposed of it the day before, I would not have believed her, because I haven't seen a crab in years? And I always saw it near the ocean. What would one be doing in my area? What would one be doing in my backyard? I stood starring at the dead crab thinking how strange it was that "Not only is this crab in my backyard, but it crawled up to my gate when it could have crawled anywhere else? And the strangest fact of all, is that it crawled right here and died." Picture below of the dead crab laying on it's back:

After starring at it for a while I then closed my blinds and decided not to over-think this or try and link it to anything spiritual. "It's just a dead crab, there's no meaning." I told myself. Fast-forward 2/3 days later I'm sitting in my bed after a very long prayer on my knees. All of a sudden the atmosphere changed in my room. It became more "real", is the best word I can use to describe it, and I had the feeling that something supernatural was about to happen. It was like if an angel had to appear in front of me I would not be shocked or scared, kind of feeling. I looked around my room for a while waiting for something to happen, and it did. Up against my closet door appeared a yellow light in the clear shape of a crab. It didn't hit me immediately that there was still a dead crab placed outside my sliding door. It took me a few minutes to make that connection and it was quite the trip when I did lol my immediate thought was: "I need to find out what this means, I need to research it right now" and so that is what I did. I went onto the internet and searched on google: "Crab spirit Bible" to see what I could find that was biblical related and not "new age". I found an article on animal spirit symbols. Above the website read "EQUIPPING THE SAINTS FOR MINISTRY" It's subtitle was "THE HOLY SPIRIT IS NOT FOOLED". A part of the introduction read:

"Over years of ministering Isaiah 61, or the deliverance ministry, we have come to recognize individual spirits by pictures or visions that are repeatedly given by the Holy Spirit to pinpoint a certain entity. For instance, if the [Holy] Spirit shows us a mushroom cloud, as in the after wake of the atom bomb, we know we are dealing with a spirit of insanity" etc... and true or not I did not know but on this Website it listed all the types of evil spirit symbols and what they meant. There were so many! But I was in search for anything to do with a crab which is what I feel the Holy Spirit revealed to me, and I found it! On that massive list was (number 5): "Control spirit - Spider, Octopus, CRAB. It controls through it's arms leading to many hurts and wounds in a person. Just as the person seems to be almost free, it will pull one of it's tentacles to cause the person to pull back. The spirit conveys, and will slowly cause bitterness, hatred, unforgiveness and suicide to surface." 

And I started thinking about this one horrible day and night I had where I felt sad for no reason and I wondered why? I cried and started feeling sorry for myself. Thoughts like "I've been a victim all of my life is this ever going to end?" It was a random load of depression on me, who is normally happy 24/7 even when not smiling I'm happy inside, dancing everyday, singing everyday, but not that day. I immediately rebuked the spirit of control saying "You, spirit of control, I rebuke you right now in Jesus name, my body belongs to God. Satan has no power over my body in Jesus name!" and felt something lift off of me! I felt a gentle warmness in my stomach and an instant calmness. I am so glad God is showing me all of these things because now I know the reason we find so many unhappy, depressed, suicidal people in our world. They reach that point because they are being influenced and controlled by the unseen evil spirits. The world is unaware and has stopped believing in miracles and the supernatural/spiritual realm, so we all play the role of very easy victims.

So TODAY (20 September 2014) I was searching for videos on Jesus and the end times, because for some reason I had been doubting Jesus lately, even after what He did for me. I came across a very interesting end times video and after watching that Sid Roth Youtube Video (Paul McGuire Interview) at the end of the video he prayed for the viewer to have something supernatural happen to them, for the Holy Spirit to enter the room in which that person was, and for God to fill that person with what they needed to prepare them for the end times, I was that person lol I have to admit I became a slightly scared person when he looked into the camera and said that - because I thought "Oh boy what's gonna happen now..." lol but then he added that we are the ones who need to accept it though. So when the video ended I prayed "God you have not given me a spirit of fear, you have given me a spirit of power, love and of a sound mind. I accept anything you want to give me or show me. I am open to receive. In Jesus name. Amen." Again the room became "different" and I looked around the room and asked: "God could I see an angel?" (I had been asking for this a few days before that as well, but maybe I'm just not ready to see that yet, maybe it would scare me at this stage, or maybe it's not necessary). Suddenly, behind my door against my white wall, another light appeared. I thought it would be an angel, but it wasn't lol it was the very clear shape of a bird. I could see how the wings instead of going out though, were positioned going down on each side. The shoulders of the bird were quite squarely shaped as well. A little disappointed I thought "That's not an angel God" lol but I got back onto my laptop and searched for bird symbols. I wondered if there wasn't maybe something on that previous article on birds as I just focused on the crab spirit and lust spirit the last time (Testimony 13) and I found that there were two bird spirit symbols on that list. The one was a black bird, which didn't look like the one I saw, the other was a "Thunderbird" and I had no idea what a thunderbird looked like, so I googled it lol (Thank God for Google) and I found the EXACT shape the light was! Incredible! View the shape below (Of course it had no patterns, it was just a light yellowish white light in the following shape):

And on the same website it read: "Antichrist related spirit - thunderbird, morning bird of American Indian lore, swine or pig."  I thought all my doubts about Jesus must be coming from this spirit. I rebuked it immediately :) so yes, there is far more to the physical - that much I am certain of. And if you would like to walk this spiritual journey then say this prayer: "Father God, I love you. I am a sinner, but I do not want to sin anymore. I believe that you sent your son Jesus into the world as a human sacrifice for our sins. I believe that Jesus was crucified, and that You rose him from the dead again. I believe that he is seated at the right hand side of you in Heaven. I believe He will come again. Let your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven God. Satan no longer has power over me. In Jesus name. Amen."

"Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved,

but whoever does not believe will be condemned."

(Mark 16:16)

God bless you, guide you and protect you... Amen. 

TESTIMONY 7: A WALK IN THE PARK

Picking up from Testimony 6, after watching the Tribulation movie I looked down at my dogs and they looked really sad and bored. They have after all been stuck in the house for weeks now. "Shame, these dogs need to get out of the house" I said to Lien (housekeeper-bestfriend) "Let's take them for a walk to the park!" Lien responded. I agreed and let the dogs know we were going on an adventure by shouting "vroom-vroom!" this phrase for some reason just gets their attention and they start running outside ready to go somewhere? Lol it's the strangest and cutest thing, but as soon as you say those words you have to take them somewhere, because if you change your mind they start moaning while staring at you, which is again - the strangest and cutest thing. So we grabbed their dog chains and took them to a park nearby. While they were running around with, I kid you not, proper smiles on their faces, I was having a chat about our neighbour with Lien. "Lien, did you ever hear church music coming from our neighbours house?" "Church music? No what neighbour?" "The one right opposite us, I heard it on Friday!" (Testimony 5) "I want to go there and see what it's all about." "Oh yes, that neighbour! The one with the white girlfriend. (lol) yes I did actually hear music coming from there sometimes. Maybe they have church there?" Lien said. "We should go" we agreed.

I then thought about that Friday night again, how I had planned to go there, but ended up staring at the stars. I laid down flat on my back again staring at the sky; only this time I was laying on grass and not on gravel and the sky was clear blue. I laid there for a while, again, looking at the larger picture. The half moon above me helped me focus on where I was located in the big world. It sunk in consciously "I am here on this earth made up of land and water, and the moon over there is to us as small as earth is to it." Just as I was starting to think about world peace again, and how easy it is to achieve if everyone agreed they wanted it, my dogs galloped right over me and started growling and going crazy! I sat up and saw they were chasing another two dogs, two beautiful dogs! They looked like snow dogs/wolves. Their owner was a man in a red Tshirt. "That's him!" Lien said softly. "What do you mean that's him, him who?" I said confused, because I had just been disturbed with a fright right out of deep thought. "The one with the white girlfriend. The neighbour!" "The house where the music comes from? Are you sure?" I asked "Yes, just ask him." "Excuse me." I projected "Do you live in the house opposite us?" I explained where we were located and it was him, the neighbour I would have walked to on Friday night (in Testimony 5).

"This is so strange, I heard music coming from your house the other night and wanted to come there, but I, well, didn't end up going. And we just mentioned you right now? And here you are at the park? What happens there?" He explained that every Friday they hold a praise and worship session at his house, called JAM "Jesus And Me". We spoke for quite some time, he had a lot to say about God. He spoke about judgement and how he doesn't force people to stop drinking and partying, "if you want to do that and still come to church then that is fine. It's about the spirit, it's a choice you make with guidance by God" he also spoke about pride and how most Christians do good "so that other people can see they are doing good, people want to please each other." He added that "God connects all His people" I sat there nodding my head the whole time, because I agreed with everything he was saying. There was one thing I wanted to ask him though, that I didn't get around to asking and you will soon find out just why. Although I had never actually met this neighbour my dad had mentioned him to me before, saying he had come up to my dad once and said "I used to be a devil worshipper, but converted to Christianity and now I rebuke demons out of people." I wanted to know if that was true, or if my dad was exaggerating or purely making the whole thing up, but I mean how do you ask someone that? "Hey so are you a former devil worshipper who converted to Christianity and now rebukes demons out of people? Oh you are? Okay cool.. I just, wanted, to know" lol while I was contemplating asking in my head still though he ended off with "If you would like to join you can come on Friday, at 7:30. Anyway, see you" and he left. Then out of nowhere a white bird landed right in front of me in the park, it looked exactly like the other one I saw before (Testimony 3) "Lien! Look at that white bird! Do you think that could be a dove?" She looked at the bird "Yes, that's a dove." I looked up at the sky and there were no other white birds flying around, just grey winged birds. Again, what are the chances? It then spread it's wings and flew gracefully away.

"After being baptized, Jesus came up immediately from the water; and behold, the heavens were opened, and he saw the Spirit of God descending as a dove and lighting on Him, and behold, a voice out of the heavens said, "This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well-pleased"." (Mathew 13: 16-17)

I hope that these testimonies increase your faith in God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit, and makes you believe in miracles, because they do exist. You just have to stop doubting and believe. My life has become miraculous... all because I said the Salvation Prayer that day at Hillsong in London (Testimony 2) :) make the decision today, you will not regret it.

TESTIMONY 3: THE DAY I SAW A DOVE

The following wasn't a vision, it wasn't a dream. This took place in our physical world. In June 2014 I was sitting in the TV area, thinking about this book I had already started writing about how to create world peace. What lead me to writing this book was a prayer I made a few weeks before this moment. For so long I had been wanting to stop modelling, because I felt like I was wasting my life, so I had asked God that day "Father God, please just show me what my true purpose is on earth, I don't want to waste any more time here, I just want to do it. I want to know what it is so that I don't put all my effort into something that is not what I'm supposed to be doing. Show me my mission God. Show me my purpose. Show me God. Amen" I prayed for this with desperation in my heart, I really wanted God to show me and really believed He would. The next day I had a modelling casting and when I was done I sat down at a small cafe in Barrack street and started listing 10 things that I am grateful for in life (my usual routine). I stared outside through the clear glass window and watched people walking by. And asked myself, what is the purpose of all of this? What is the purpose of getting a job, none of these people are smiling? None of these people look happy? They are walking around like zombies off to work t make money. And this is their lives everyday. It was then that the solution had been placed in my mind. A solution to world peace. It was a surprisingly simple solution and yet never implemented? I knew God was telling me that I am meant to implement it. I am meant to share this simple solution with the world. My thoughts were leading me, showing me what I must do, and they lead me to writing a book that I am still busy with.

So, a few weeks later I was sitting there in my TV area, thinking about this book and how I was going to get it out to the world and save the world. Then I looked over to my left and this beautiful white bird was standing at my sliding door between the small alley on the side of my house. It was so beautiful that it felt surreal. It felt like a message from God to me. It felt like a blessing. Tears started falling down my face and I felt this overwhelming feeling of joy, like God really knew who I am and sent me this white bird. I consciously knew it was a dove, but what are the chances of that dove landing right in the small alley way on the side of my house, next to the sliding door, precisely while I was thinking about world peace? I immediately thought of Jesus when I saw it. The dove had started walking by the sliding door slowly, until it was eventually out of view. I was in awe by this experience and still staring at the sliding door in shock when my mother had entered the room. "What are you staring at?" she asked. "I just saw a dove!" "A dove? Where?" "Right here next to the sliding door!" I brought my mom over to the sliding door and was hoping it would still be there so that I could avoid looking insane lol (I had been talking to my parents about a book I was going to write that was going to bring peace to the whole world, they don't really seem interested or believe me, so they could have thought I was just making the dove up as well) but there it was, still standing in the alley way and my mother saw it with her own eyes! "Oh wow, okay, but how do you know it's a dove?" she asked. I believe that everything you see, you see for a reason. Nothing happens by accident in this world. I felt in my heart it was a sign from God to me. "It's a dove!" I said. I then researched the spiritual meaning of seeing a dove on earth to see what I could find and this is what I found and read to my mother. Who still wasn't very interested.

"The dove is a symbol of the Holy Spirit in Christian iconography. Some iconographers show Mary being blessed by a dove at the moment of Annunciation, and Jesus was blessed by the Holy Spirit in the form of a dove at his baptism. The dove is said to be so pure that it is the one form into which Satan cannot transform himself. The dove appears as  symbol of purity on the Holy Grail in Malory's Morte d'Arthur. In Muslim lore, a dove murmured the words of God into the ear of Muhammad. Today the dove is a symbol of peace, often portrayed with an olive branch in it's mouth. This iconography is taken from the story of Noah releasing the bird to bring back proof that there was land again somewhere and that the floodwater's were receding."

How exciting is that! I love signs from God, and I am excited to see where this journey leads me to on earth, but I know where it's leading me to in the spiritual realm :)