TESTIMONY 2: A TRIP TO HILLSONG

Hello Beloved! I hope you are feeling happy today! The following is a true story I would like to share with you, about the day Jesus changed my life! I used to drink, I used to party all the time, I even started smoking cigarettes for a few months? I smoked marijuana a few times too. I also found my new Church - a place I now consider home. So, in September I was in the UK doing modelling and I was staying in a model apartment with girls from all over the world. Two of my housemates were Christians, from America. Their names were Nickayla Rivera and Mckenna Bird. They invited me out with them to a church called Hillsong. "Nickayla and I are going to this church called Hillsong tonight, do you want to join us?" at that point I was more depressed than I had ever been in my life during my stay in the UK, so I said yes and thought I would go with them and check out this church they were raving about. Anything would have helped me at that point. We all got done the night, walked to the station together and on that train, I could not stop crying? I have no idea why I was crying, but tears were just rolling down my face? I suppose all of my problems in my life just hit me all at once in thought form on that train towards Hillsong Church. When my housemates asked me why I was crying all I said was "I just miss my family and South Africa." because I didn't know what else to say? Little did they know about the darkness that was consuming my mind in that very moment they were being lied to. When I entered the Hillsong Church building with red wet eyes I immediately got this warm feeling, like I had just entered a place where no one could judge me. It felt like I had just walked into a room full of family. There was a soft sound of distant loud music coming from the hall area. As we opened and entered through the doors of that hall, a bang of loud uplifting live music hit my ears and there was purple and blue light everywhere. To this day I still am not exactly sure why, but again tears started rolling down my face and I couldn't stop them from falling. I felt like my entire life had come down to that precise point, like I belonged there and was meant to end up there. At one point I had to sit down while everyone was standing, because I was ashamed and mostly just confused. The pastor then spoke and asked if there was anyone that needed Jesus to enter their heart, and if they were going through any struggles that they were to repeat a prayer after him to invite Jesus into their lives and accept Him as Lord, which I did. With a soaked face and a salty mouth, I stood up and repeated every word. After that prayer I immediately felt ten times better, like everything would be fine from then on. Tears were still rolling down my face, but I felt like smiling. My tears of sorrow and confusion, became tears of joy. I didn't know at that moment that I was being saved, but I knew life would never be the same again, and that I had found my church for life. If you haven't been to Hillsong Church yet, give it a try this Sunday? It might just change your life like it did mine! Like their worldwide facebook page here: Hillsong Church Facebook Page to find a Hillsong near you! And enjoy the journey :) God bless!

Testimony 1: The day I repented of my sins

My spiritual journey began when I confessed that I was a sinner to God, and said out-loud with true belief that JESUS IS LORD, but long before this took place you could already see Jesus trying to get me on the path to eternal life by placing His wisdom in my mind.

6/09/2013 I posted the following on my Facebook wall: "Please, when reading this post instead of assuming I am doing this for attention, or thinking that I am crazy, understand it. I am also in no way meaning to insult anyone else’s religion. This is simply what I believe in.

It’s Sunday night and instead of chatting to other people on my new phone, flirting with the opposite sex, or stalking people’s lives on Facebook, I am on the internet doing research on Nostradamus and other life in the universe. I do this every night, literally. I am so interested in these things, the world and how it formed interests me and mainly religion. I am a FIRM believer in Jesus Christ and I want it to be known. I do not care what you believe in or how it makes me look to other people, it’s ME and GOD. I trust NO ONE ELSE. He is the only one I wish to impress. I have decided to change my life; putting an end to the person I used to be. One could say that I don’t deserve a reserved place in the heavens above with a past like mine, but all along I have been on the right path to get me where I am today. Every mistake made, every lesson learnt, it was all meant to happen. There is one thing I am certain about and that is that I have believed in God my entire life and REALLY believed. Since I was a little child I prayed knowing He was listening to me. I could feel He was listening to me, because every prayer, was answered - every single prayer. I find it really hard to believe that there are even people in this world who don’t believe in God. How do they think we got here exactly? If I were to sit them down and ask them this very question I’m sure I would find their answer amusing as they entertain me with all of the nonsense placed in their minds by the strong mental influence on brainwashing drugs, TV shows and misleading books.

I think if people just took the time to actually read the Bible they would learn a lot more than just God’s existence. There are so many life lessons in that book, pages filled with life examples, mistakes, punishments. The Bible teaches you what you will need to do and be, if you want to live for eternity (in the heavens above) and it teaches you what not to do in order to avoid going to hell. (You don’t want this. Living like a King/Queen here on earth is not worth suffering there) I have believed in my God all my life but never ever read every page in the Bible, “because I have an understanding of the basics of what is in there”, I believed, but come to realize that I was just too darn lazy to take the time to pick up that big book and read every single word, nor did I have the time. Now, I am MAKING the time, I plan to read every page. Everything happens for a reason and I believe that, there is a reason I did not read the Bible earlier and there is a reason I am going to read it only now and discover things I need to know, now. I have made enough mistakes to sculpt me into this person that is brave enough to make this change (and type this post to the public). Now I am ready to read, learn and teach.

I have been alive long enough to know that people do not like to be preached to. In the past, I have received inbox messages myself from complete strangers sending me verses from the Bible. I thought these people were crazy. The curiosity and belief in God made me read the message they had sent me, but the judgement kept me from replying or implementing that lesson in the verse, in my life. I just simply carried on doing what I thought was living. So, when I say I am “changing my life” and doing God’s work from now onward, this does not mean that I will be inboxing everyone on Facebook or making long status updates (like this one exception) and that I will now become a bitter person towards people and judge their every move and choice of religion (How Christian would that be of me to judge? ) I will not run around with a huge sign hanging over my body saying “The end is near” either - that’s just not for me lol it is also pointless, nobody will listen to me (unless I’m walking around in a bikini - it seems). I refuse to lose my sense of humour as well, as this is a contributing factor towards my happiness and the happiness of others in my company. I will, however, no longer be socializing with people who choose to spend their time they have here, in nightclubs, wasting their (or their parents) hard earned money on alcohol and other substances – which in the end only prove to be a distraction from what you were actually created to do (Everyone has a purpose). These places, I feel, are places created for sin. (Mainly used for brainwashing/mind control)

What are you even there for? “I want to have a good time and enjoy my life - YOLO!” Why is getting drunk and high and dancing like animals or sexually considered a good time? Ask yourself this, and think deeply and simply about it. All you are going to do there is move your body to fast music (which puts you in a wild mood and mind-set) in a room filled with other people, whom you you either want to impress (why else would you spend so much time on your hair, face and outfit?) or you want to meet someone you can date for a while then break up with and cry about. (You are far less likely to find the man or woman you are going to marry in a nightclub. Being there in the first place already says enough about them to know that they are not ready for settling down. Throughout your relationship they will obviously want to carry on going to nightclubs, listening to the sound of the devil, getting drunk. And you will be on that path to nowhere with them. (You want your heart to waste love on a temporary someone? Go for it, but learn from it.) Or you could be there to support (or worship) a specific DJ/genre of music.

People need, to wake up and SEE that music has a MUCH larger influence on the world than we think. It is far more than just a sound. It is a feeling, which creates thoughts which lead to actions. (I will soon elaborate on this). If you listen to music about making money, getting drunk, taking drugs and having sex, you will be influenced into that direction whether you like it or not. Music lyrics are affirmations you repeat. Affirmations create beliefs in your mind and your mind forms your life. I’m not going to let these drugged up drunk “celebrities” (not role models) tempt me anymore, into wanting  to live a life like theirs, because it’s far less glamorous and far more messed up than it looks. Majority of them are secretly insane caused by drugs, you can hear it in their music. 

I no longer drink alcohol. I decided this only 2 weeks ago, making me 2 weeks sober and proud. Two sober weekends have passed. I am the happiest I have ever been, and this is just the beginning of my beautiful decision. I am so excited to see where this journey takes me, I am not even afraid of death anymore; I have come to terms with it and accepted it. I feel that no matter how painful your death will be, the shock and surrealism of it will outweigh the pain. I understand death now and when it is my time to go, it will happen. In the mean time I will place my life I’m living here in God’s hands, and He can now do what HE wants to do with it. I don’t care about my dreams anymore, unless they go hand-in-hand with His plan.

After this post, I get it - Inevitably I will be ridiculed. I would just like to be clear on one thing; this will not bother me at all. Jesus was ridiculed. Einstein was ridiculed. Nostradamus was ridiculed. Most people who preach the word of God on social networks are ridiculed. One should not worry about what people think, they are just another creation like yourself, they should not be more or less important to you. You are equal to them. 

GOD is the one you want to impress, Amen."

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