We broke out into groups to lay hands on one person per group. I then asked God to show me anything about the girl my hands were touching, but only if it was His will. As I sat in silence I thought about what looked like a door and then said to the girl "A door has come to my mind and I'm not sure what it means, but I feel like it could be a door that you should walk through. Maybe it's a door that you want to walk through, but something is stopping you, holding you back from walking through that door." The other woman then said "Yes, I saw a gate, with rust on it!" I then thought about the word "hope" and felt she was lacking it. So I told her "I feel like the enemy is trying to steal your hope from you, so that you feel like there is no way and hope is that voice telling you everything is going to be okay keep going, which is why he wants to take your hope." Our group leader then came to prophecy over her as well and said to her "I see doors (Confirmation?) there are many doors that lead to wrong places, but there's one that you must walk through and in the other doors are all the wrong things and you keep walking into a door and feeling disappointed." She later shared her struggles with the whole group in tears and I could just hear the lack of hope in her voice.
After she received advice from everyone in the room we ended off with prayer and then all had some tea as usual before leaving. A while later someone then asked me if I want another cup of tea and although I didn't really want more tea, I thought sure why not. This is immediately when the attack on my mind started. Something kept telling me that I shouldn't drink the tea, that something bad would happen if I drank it. Once again those paranoid thoughts from my very first attack in New York came back and were telling me the tea is drugged. I ignored these thoughts and knew they were from the enemy trying to get me to accept a lie, and believe it, but as soon as I took a sip the attack became worse and I started feeling dizzy and just as I was about to ask everyone to pray for me, something told me you cannot trust them. I ignored this thought from the enemy and said "Guys, I don't feel well, something's wrong." and as I was putting the cup of tea down I was about to ask them to pray for me until one of the people said (as a joke) "What's wrong, is it the tea, hey who poured the tea did you poison Sydney." which really could not have been said at a worse moment lol someone then asked if I want water and I said yes and I got up to walk to the bathroom to pray alone. However as I walked towards the bathroom through the kitchen area I was so dizzy that I just fell onto the girl in the kitchen and something again was telling me not to trust her, but I had no choice but to ignore it and asked her to pray for me. She began praying and rebuking as I rested with my eyes closed upon her left shoulder. As she prayed I was shaking and really felt something or someone evil coming up strong against me, really trying hard to cripple me, but I just kept praying in my mind as she prayed and eventually after what must have been about 5 minutes I felt better. Tears began rolling down my face in my own weakness, mostly just trying to process what had just happened so suddenly, and why. Later when I arrived home safely, just before sleeping I prayed as usual, giving thanks to God, and then I asked God for help to set me free from whatever this was. I climbed into bed ready, very ready lol, to finally sleep and just before dozing off I saw a picture of a red star. Which appeared quite vividly like this (Only it was red):
I knew it was extremely evil (obviously) and I just knew in my heart that I had to pray against it. I immediately prayed against all demonic curses, hexes, spells, charms, witchcraft/dark magic that was ever used against me, cancelling them in the name of Jesus and I felt even better. I slept peacefully and woke up feeling excited, because I feel like God is showing me all of these things for a very good reason, and sometimes God takes us through a hard time so that we can help others who are going through it. How else would we be able to relate to them? (Jesus was lead into the wilderness by the Sprit to be tempted by the devil, so that he could resist and so that he could teach us how to resist).
"For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling
of our infirmities;
but was in all points tempted like as we are,
yet without sin."
but was in all points tempted like as we are,
yet without sin."
(Hebrews 4:15)
So if you currently are facing any hard battles, I promise you that there is a reason for this season of your life and I can assure you that it won't last forever. A season does not last forever, it comes and it goes. Later you will look back at these struggles and you will smile in understanding of why it all had to happen, you will see how much stronger it made you, you will see how it humbled you and brought you closer to God. Remember that God will never have the intention of harming you, He only wishes to cause you to grow.
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD,
thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end."
(Jeremiah 29:11)
To GOD be the Glory, our faithful God who always hears our prayers and answers. He is the MOST POWERFUL and nothing and no one stands a chance against Him. I hope that this post helped you and I ask God to protect you, heal you and guide you, in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth. Amen. God is with you right now!
